Earlier this week I started a long-term review of a Dan Wesson ECO, which is a 3.5 inch Officer’s sized 1911. Lest anyone think its reliability will be a gimme, I offer the following video from Rob Pincus. I don’t know Rob, and I don’t agree with everything he writes, but based off my personal experience he is correct.
Yes, the gun in the video is a Kimber, but that is irrelevant. Small 1911’s are generally finicky. In fact, I fully expect the ECO will fail at some point. And if it does, I have a couple of things in my bag of tricks that might help reliability.
Did you see the challenge at the end of the video? I don’t know if Rob is still offering this, but if the ECO kicks ass, maybe I could take him up on the offer – not likely.
In the end, I hope the ECO stuns me with utter reliability, but if it fails, I will not be shocked in any way. It is the nature of the beast.
So… do you have a small 1911 that has been flawless? Let us know. Please include the total cumulative round count, as well as the maximum round count you shot in one session.
And for those that care, I finally got around to buying some ammo so testing will start tomorrow!
Sometimes I like to go through the incoming search terms that have brought people to the blog and wonder “how in the hell did that get them there?” Other times, I like to find questions and answer them. This is the latter, so I’m going to cherry pick a few search terms and hopefully answer them. If you’re the person who searched the blog for “plus size women’s concealed carry clothes that won’t print” you’re probably going to be disappointed, but for the other people? This should be fun.
Click bait title right? Obviously I don’t mean using a 9mm to hunt Mr. Buck; but, I recently had to dispatch a gravely wounded deer with my CCW and in doing so I came away with some insight worth sharing.
First a quick yarn about how the events unfolded.
I was on my way to work in pretty heavy fog, when out of nowhere a deer jumped in front of the car ahead of me and tried to wrestle. As expected the car won. Amazingly the driver didn’t stop, instead they kept going (how do I know they didn’t have insurance…) even though their headlight and portions of their bumper where now occupying the road. Normally I wouldn’t have stopped either, but the deer came to rest directly in front of the bus entrance to my son’s elementary school. It was early in the morning and the buses hadn’t started running, but I knew if I didn’t move the carcass no one would. I didn’t want school buses dodging a deer in morning school traffic, nor did I want small kids to start their school day witnessing bloody gore.
Firearms are relatively simple machines to understand. You load them, you point them at something you want to put a hole in, and then you pull the trigger. Easy, right?
So why in the name of Zeus is it so bloody hard to get people to avoid pointing guns at things they don’t want to blow a hole in?
“Excuse me, sir, but would you like to put a bullet through your hand? No? THEN DON’T POINT THE GUN AT YOUR HAND!”
I see this kind of stuff far too often when I’m at the range. On more than one occasion I have actually laid hands on another person to redirect the muzzle of their weapon away from either an innocent person who did not deserve to get shot, or in a couple of cases their own anatomy.
On a trip to the NRA range when I was shooting a drill, out of the corner of my eye I saw Todd Green dive into the next lane. I immediately ceased fire, brought my gun to a ready position and moved. I looked over to see Todd shoving an 8mm Mauser rifle away from my direction. The woman handling the rifle had it pointed directly at me.
Todd got a few inches away from the woman’s face and very sternly said “Do not point guns at my friends.”
Was he being rude? Hell no. He was doing exactly what everybody should do when someone POINTS A LETHAL WEAPON AT ANOTHER HUMAN BEING. Endangering the life of another person REQUIRES an immediate and stern rebuke.
You know what is rude? POINTING A LETHAL WEAPON AT ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.
In this video we have a clear example of where an immediate and unmistakable correction could have prevented gunshot wound. The victim here appears to be the person who is less familiar with firearms of the pair in the video. I’m all for taking people to the range, but when we do it is incumbent upon us to emphasize safe handling and correct any mistakes instantly and unmistakably.
When the shooter here put his hand in front of the muzzle the proper response would have been to IMMEDIATELY direct the gun away from his anatomy and very simply say “Don’t point guns at anything you don’t want to kill!”
If someone is unable to take that sort of correction, they don’t need to be handling a gun.
Of course, the shooter here did not mean to do any harm to himself or anyone else. He was simply being careless with a very dangerous object.
But tell me…did his lack of malice matter? Did he get any less shot because he didn’t mean to do it?
Bullets are stupid. They do the same amount of damage whether you intended to launch one or not. So it is not a trivial matter when someone puts the muzzle on human anatomy…be it yours or theirs.
Rule 1 is rule 1 for a reason. You can screw up every other rule of handling a firearm, but if you observe rule 1 then there is some embarrassment and perhaps some drywall to repair but that’s it. If you screw up Rule 1 then somebody bleeds. Someone is permanently injured. Someone dies.
We’re all enthusiasts at some level. Sure, some of us are more serious about competition, some of us are more serious about defensive shooting, but not a single person that’s deeply invested in our hobby won’t admit that some guns are just cool. If I had to create a simple five-stop bucket list of guns you have to shoot before you die, this would be it. Some of the guns are on this list because they’re historically significant, others just because they’re cool and I like them.
For Part 2 of Project Lumen we will review the notes and data points from the first three lights tested.
During the testing I learned a tidbit that is specific to my house, is wholly irrelevant to this test, and does illustrate the need to actual test your home and don’t fall into the trap of presumption.
This was the brightest light tested so far and the initial illumination or “light on” wasn’t a problem with my groggy night sight. It was definitely bright; but not blinding or over-powering. The illumination was very good and I had no problem seeing what I needed to see.
The 180 lumen LED provided a quality white illumination, and while it made for some hard shadows, the overall light provided was excellent.
The reflectivity off the walls was not bad at all. The interior walls of my house have an egg-shell sheen so that clearly comes into play. If the walls in my house were high gloss; or if I was up against a door frame painted with gloss trim paint, there might be a problem.
This was the best light tested so far.
At 45 lumens this is easily the dullest light of the test. The illumination was just weak; even with new batteries installed. Initial “light on” wasn’t a problem because the overall light was dim – very, very dim.
As with the ProTac LED, the color was a vibrant white hue and overall provided the bare minimum amount of light to do the job. With only 45 lumens, reflectivity was virtually zero and as noted above, the overall effect on my night sight was minimal.
While the Streamlight Microstream is a good light, its worth as a defensive light is questionable. It is better than nothing, but so is a candle, sans the fire hazard. I still think this is a decent flashlight for EDC, but I would not make it my only light by the bedside.
The XS Micro and Microstream chillin’ on some Kevlar and Nomex aircraft paneling.
INOVA XS Micro:
This light was not purchased for any other reason than I liked the way it looked. The color is reminiscent of Titanium, even though it is not. No, my excuse for this light would be those times I am really dressed up, such as weddings and funerals. I never had self-defense or serious use in mind when I purchased this flashlight; so of course I tested it. At 80 lumens, I felt it exploring its capabilities as a defense torch was warranted.
Similar to the Micro Stream, the initial light was not blinding or over-powering. At 80 lumens the XS Micro was better than the Microstream. In fact, it was quite a bit better, more so then the difference in lumens would suggest.
Oddly, the LED cast a bluish hue to the environment; not a major issue, but the illumination was not as “clean” as the ProTac or the Microstream. For those that don’t know, the human eye has the most difficulty seeing blue illumination when compared to all others. Click here for more information.
Finally, the tail cap was difficult to actuate. This is not a review, but this was readily noticeable while drowsy. I still think it looks cool, and now that I am aware of its shortcomings, I can better decide when to carry this sexy little light.
Part 2 Conclusions:
With these three low power flashlights reviewed it is obvious that anything less than around 150 lumens is too weak for real consideration. (Hint – the 100 lumen NEBO has already been tested too) At no point was my night vision affected and I learned several key points on the way shadows are cast in my house.
Next time I will review the NEBO, the 275 lumen Streamlight PolyTac and Streamlight NF-2 with an incandescent bulb and only 78 lumens.
I look to future parts with the following questions:
Is there a limit to have many lumens you should have?
Can incandescent light dissuade my developing thought that 150 lumens should be the bare minimum for a torch you might stake your life on?
While gathering data, will I stub my toe and awaken everyone with my cursing?
If you spend any time watching low light videos on YouTube, or reading articles by “experts”, you will notice two differing opinions on the requirements of a home defense light. Some will say too many lumens will reflect back into your face and blind you; others say it doesn’t matter and you should go with the brightest possible. So which is it?
I wanted to find out and decided to do some testing of my own – Project Lumen. With this article I will lay out the goal and some ground rules.
Can have too many lumens at night? Will too bright a light lead to self-induced blindness? Are the opinions of other based in fact, or just regurgitated internet tripe?
This experiment will hopefully answer those questions while also helping me to determine what the best illumination for my house is. Keep in mind your house may be different. You may have more, or less, shadows; your house is likely a different color and sheen on the interior walls. I have real wood floors throughout my house. If you have carpet the reflected light will be different. You may have mirrors that reflect light. In my house we have a set of French doors leading into what has become the kid’s playroom. Will the light reflected off of those doors be problematic?
It is worth noting that while I can’t test every flashlight ever made, I have gathered a decent spread of different types and lumen outputs to evaluate. This testing will not be done in a sleep lab or a scientific dark room; no, instead it will be performed in my home, under realistic “bump in the night” conditions. I will get to the actual test procedure in a minute, but certain aspects will be beyond my control; things such as:
How much moonlight is present through the windows.
Is there cloud cover?
Are my neighbors flood lights on or off?
How well, or how deep, was I sleeping when the test begins?
You may not agree with the results and it is entirely possible that your results would differ from mine. Still, I hope that you take the information and processes used and decide to test your own environment, draw your own conclusions, and ensure the best for your protection.
I want to give a quick note to those that might complain about my methods. I am open to completely redoing the test in a perfectly controlled environment. Just tell me what lab you are paying for and provide me with airfare, per diem, the address, a rental car, lost wages, and the brace of lights you want tested… ‘nuff said.
To make things simple I will use two parameters to define the test flashlights – lumens and bulb type. Lumens is not the “be all, end all” of lighting; but it provides a number that can be used as a reference. Bulb type will allow me to determine if the coloration of the light effects the result (for more on light color and mood click here) on the surrounding environment. I will neither test nor document; run time, durability, candlepower, watts, weight, size or cost. I have also made a conscious decision not to test a weapon mounted light. This test is to determine the effects of light reflection and overall lumens on my eye sight; thus I see no reason to increase the element of error, and danger, by introducing a weapon into the test when I can get the same results with a flashlight.
Lumen – : a unit of luminous flux equal to the light emitted in a unit solid angle by a uniform point source of one candle intensity. The Wikipedia page actually has a lot of quality information about lumens for those that want to geek out.
Candlepower – illuminating power expressed in candelas or candles.
Before I get to the test, which is remarkably simple, I want to list the players. I will test one flashlight per night.
Mag Light – 3 D Cell (incandescent, around 45 lumens)
A borrowed Streamlight Stinger DS LED (C4 LED, 350 Lumens)
Maybe a Q-Beam if I can borrow one (Bright!)
For as long as this article has become, the test is actually pretty easy. I will stage one flashlight on my bedside table at bedtime. I wake up at 5:00 AM, well before anyone else in my house; so, when my alarm goes off, I will simply proceed to “clear” my house. I will take the same path during each test. With nine flashlights and the potential for more this will take a couple of weeks, but my goal is to update what I learn as I go and offer a final conclusion at the end.
If you look at gun stuff online, you’ve probably seen them…advertisements for police trade-in guns from various online distributors like CDNN Investments, Summit Gunbroker, or Bud’s Gun Shop. The temptation is strong: Here’s the possibility of buying a good useable firearm with maybe some cosmetic blemishes for a considerable discount.
At the moment a number of police departments across the country are trading in .40 S&W sidearms as they transition to 9mm pistols and as a result those former police guns are turning up at wholesalers, local dealers, and gunshows. Selling for between $150-400 off the price of a brand new specimen it’s very attractive. So should you buy one?
Maybe. To explain I need to tell you the tale of two friends who work for two different police departments.
The first is Greg Ellifritz. Greg is an incredibly intelligent, and incredibly dedicated guy. He’s also had the benefit of working for a department with good quality leadership and a generally adequate budget. They trusted Greg enough to invest in his personal development and benefit tremendously from his input and hard work…including his service as the department’s armorer. When he was the full-time training officer for his department, Greg took the time to carefully inspect each weapon his department issued, cleaned it thoroughly, and performed essential preventative maintenance like changing springs, and checking the fit and function of small parts like extractors, ejectors, disconnectors, safeties, etc. He did this with the utmost attention to detail because he knew that weapon’s function could mean the difference between life and death for one of his officers.
The second is a friend a bit more local to me who signed on with his department in the mid 1990’s. He was issued a Glock 22 as a sidearm along with 3 magazines. He retired in late 2013. Unfortunately there was no Greg in his department. His issued sidearm received absolutely no armorer’s attention in his entire career there. Not a single spring was changed. He was still using the magazines he was issued when he joined, which were still equipped with the original springs and followers. The department had absolutely no weapons inspections. At each qualification session they experienced multiple stoppages and malfunctions, which isn’t surprising as a number of officers never really cleaned or lubricated their weapons. He convinced his department to buy an ultrasonic cleaner which he used and managed to convince a few others to use. Some wouldn’t even unload their weapon and drop it in the ultrasonic cleaner. On top of all of that, many of his department’s weapons had severe manufacturing problems. His personal sidearm was so woefully inaccurate even from a prone I could barely keep shots on an 8.5×11″ piece of paper at 25 yards.
When you are looking at a generic “police trade-in” gun, you don’t have a good way of knowing if the gun came from a department like Greg’s where it was carefully maintained or another department where it suffered almost total neglect. You don’t know if it was traded in because the department wanted to switch calibers for cost reasons, or if it’s because they experienced severe problems with a batch of guns and had to get rid of them for something else.
The key to trade-in purchase happiness, then, is to do some homework and manage expectations. For the happiest outcome you have to know a bit about how the firearm you’re thinking about was made, how it was most likely used while it was issued, and you have to be prepared to do some work on the gun to get it working.
Take the 870 Wingmaster pictured above as an example. The exterior of the gun shows wear from likely at least 2 decades of handling and storage, but I know that lots of police issue shotguns out there have not been fired very much in their service. I know the old Wingmasters are some of the best quality weapons Remington has ever made, and because it’s an 870 you can do just about anything you can conceive of to it. Knowing all of this I was reasonably certain I could buy one and get a gun that looked pretty cool (I love the old school look of the gun) and that would work. Sure enough, it looks better than Summit Gun Broker advertised and it worked splendidly when I had the chance to take her out to the range.
The Walther PP at the top of the page is a former West German police sidearm. In the era when that PP was the primary sidearm for the German police, they spent most of their lives carried in a holster (a flap holster, I believe) without being fired very much. Of course, Germans being Germans, they did actually pay attention to keeping the guns clean and in good working order…including being careful with the finish. My PP shows a bit of obvious holster wear by the muzzle, but that’s it. The rest of the gun looks as good as new. It runs beautifully with ball ammunition.
The S&W model 10 pictured is one of my absolute favorites. It is a former Australian issue police revolver that attracted my attention because of the low price (around $200 at the time…a steal) and the relatively rare 3″ barrel. K frames with a 3″ barrel might just be the best carry revolvers ever made. I looked around the web to see what some of the first buyers received and they described guns that had a bit of a rough finish, but were in excellent mechanical working order. Mine is no different. It clearly spent a lot of time in a holster being banged around and it suffered obvious neglect, but revolvers tend to be very tolerant of neglect. The bore is in excellent shape and the lockup is tight. It’s also extremely accurate with 158 grain ammunition.
I tend to have a weakness for guns that fall into the “they don’t make them like that anymore!” category, and often police trade-ins are splendid ways to collect those types of firearms inexpensively. If you have the same preferences and you’re willing to do some tinkering to get a gun that needs a little love up to snuff for the occasional range visit, trade-ins are fantastic.
If, on the other hand, you are looking for a primary defensive option I would urge more caution. If you don’t know how the gun was maintained, don’t have any insight into the service life it experienced, and don’t know if it came from a batch of guns with manufacturing problems it’s dicey to bet your life on that gun. The same would apply if you are financially strapped. If you are buying a trade-in as a more economical defensive option be sure you have the scratch necessary to fix anything that needs fixing. If you ever intend to carry a trade-in for serious social purposes make sure you test it thoroughly before depending on it.
Another sweet spot for trade-ins would be for people who already have, say, an M&P and maybe want another one they can use for range duty or experimenting with customization. A cheaper “beater” gun similar to your primary blaster that you can go Dr. Frankenstein on without worry is often very useful. Especially if you tend to learn about working on guns primarily by making mistakes. Ask me how I know…
If you understand what you are buying and you have a clear view of your intended use and what it may take to get a neglected or abused specimen back up to par, police trade-in firearms can be a tremendous value. If you don’t have a clear understanding of all of that and you’re looking for a defensive implement with a lower price tag, you should definitely try to educate yourself so you know what you are getting into.
Let me start off with the answer you seek: Go purchase this light now! Seriously; follow this link and order this light now. You have two battery choices, AA or CR123, you can’t go wrong with either.
When I reviewed Nitecore SRT3 back in February I made mention that I had replaced it with a Streamlight ProTac. That replacement took place in early January so I give you a short-term review. Short term in this case means about 3 ½ months of daily carry and use.
The ProTac 1L is a well-made, decent sized (as in not too bulky, but big enough to provide decent light) LED flashlight made by those purveyors of affordable lumens, Streamlight. This is the 4th Streamlight flashlight I have purchased, and once again I am impressed. In fact, I hope I have finally realized that Streamlight should be my go to manufacturer for flashlights. Sure, Surefire is great, but on a cost vs. benefits scale, Streamlight holds the key – at least for me.
Here is what Streamlight says about their little flashlight and the published specs:
An ultra-compact tactical light, the ProTac® 1L is small and easy to carry, and uses a single lithium battery. The light is one of the most versatile personal carry lights available for users, from law enforcement personnel to industrial technicians.
Features Ten-Tap® Programming – Choose from three user selectable programs:
1.) high/strobe/low (factory default) 2.) high only 3.) low/high
C4® LED illumination output and run times: HIGH – 180 lumens; 3,800 candela peak beam intensity; runs 2 hours LOW – 12 lumens; 250 candela peak beam intensity; runs 24 hours STROBE – runs 4 hours
Includes one 3V CR123A lithium battery and nylon holster
Solid State power regulation provides maximum light output throughout battery life
Rubber push-button tail switch
Durable, anodized aluminum construction with impact-resistant tempered glass lens
IPX7 waterproof to 1 meter for 30 minutes; 2 meter impact resistance tested
Unbreakable pocket clip
43” (8.71 cm); 2 oz (57 grams)
Did you note the part I underlined above? Did you notice the photos? Industrial technicians; yup, that is the category I fall into. I buy small flashlights with two goals: 1) personal use, be it protection or finding the crayon my son dropped at the restaurant and, 2) ensuring airworthiness of aircraft at my day job.
I am not a LEO. I am not a fire-fighter. I am neither a major nor minor league door kicker. I research and review my non-firearm related EDC gear with realistic EVERYDAY goals in mind. I am way more likely to drop my flashlight from a ladder into a bucket of waste jet fuel (the ProTac experienced this once) than to survey a smoke-filled room for survivors, or bad guys.
So, after daily carry I can give the Streamlight ProTac 1L a solid 100% review. I have dropped it from my pocket, kicked it, dropped it into the previously mentioned bucket of jet fuel, sprayed it down with isopropyl alcohol (to remove the jet fuel), and it even got put through the washing machine once. It has proven itself tough.
Like Krylon of flashlight world; no drips, no runs, no errors. That said, I can, and will, do an abbreviated Pro’s/Con’s for it.
Dependable – if a flashlight isn’t dependable, why bother. Buy this with confidence.
Bright – It is not retina searing, but it is bright enough for every day task. I would recommend something brighter for a bump in the night though.
Size vs Power – about perfect. It is comfortable and lightweight.
Selectable Modes – I don’t need the strobe or the low power mode, but thankfully Streamlight gives us the option to turn them off permanently. Bright is what I want, bright is what I get. Circuit engineering done right.
My only complaint is with the clip. It is stout and hasn’t lost tension, but the allowable positions leave more of the flashlight sticking out of my pocket then I would prefer. I know; first world problems.
As I said at the beginning, go buy this light. I have two co-workers with the 2L version, which adds a second battery. They are equally worthy of your ownership, although I find them a little long for everyday carry.
So you are still on the fence as to whether you should purchase the Streamlight ProTac 1L or not? I’ll let Arnie opine.
My various training travels over the years have brought me into contact with a number of outstanding and interesting people that have changed my thinking or my outlook on important matters. In some cases it was a brief intersection with someone else on the range that taught me something I wasn’t really expecting to learn. In others, I’ve made friends for life.
If I had to name the person who has had the biggest influence on my thinking and development over the years it would be easy: Todd Green.
Todd is the mind behind Pistol-Training.com, which is likely best known for the downright brutal extended torture tests he performed on a number of pistols. Before striking out on his own as an instructor, Todd worked for Sig and Beretta where he acted as a military/law enforcement rep and often as a trainer for their weapon systems. In that capacity he had incredible levels of access and insight into the training of elite law enforcement and military units on the front lines of the War On Terror that shaped his outlook on training and standards.
Before and during his tenure with Beretta and Sig, Todd sought out training with some of the best instructors in the world. Instructors like Ken Hackathorn, Tom Givens, and Ernest Langdon had a profound influence on Todd’s development. (As I understand it, Ernest Langdon actually recommended Todd for his position at Beretta) Todd was also involved with competitive shooting personally and helped run at least Beretta’s sponsored competitive team. This, too, shaped his philosophy. When you swirl all of that together with his law degree (Todd actually worked for the Washington DC US Attorney’s office Violent Crimes Unit) the end result was a very unique voice in the firearms industry.
When Todd worked at Sig and Beretta as a rep, he was often an advocate for the end users of the products. He told me that on more than one occasion he was chastised for acting more like a rep for an end user than for the company…but that’s just how he did things. Todd identified with the end users of the products betting their life and the lives of others on the function of the guns he was selling them moreso than the guys in the back office doing the accounting. He had high standards for himself and he wasn’t inclined to let others get away with mediocrity, especially when he knew lives were on the line.
Once on his own as an instructor, his experiences in the industry and in training led him to write some pretty interesting pieces. Exemplar would be his superb article, Trust No One.
Todd and I began corresponding on a firearms related web forum just shy of ten years ago. I wrote some things that apparently he thought made sense and he reached out to me and struck up a couple of conversations. That eventually led to taking his signature Aim Fast, Hit Fast program on the recommendation of Jay Cunningham of Protective Shooting Concepts. AFHF made it abundantly clear to me that I needed to completely overhaul everything I thought I knew about shooting a handgun. It was downright demoralizing. I don’t even remember what my score was the first time I shot the FASTest, but it was ugly. Really ugly.
So I forgot everything I thought I knew and started over…and Todd, often known for poking fun, was incredibly supportive and helpful. I mean, he still made fun of me, but he was incredibly helpful too. My skill with a handgun increased by leaps and bounds. I had the distinct privilege of joining with Todd and a relatively small group of other guys nearby who had been to his classes for a number of range days and with each one of them I improved dramatically. I always thought of myself as the worst guy there and I quite often had my butt kicked, but the benefits of surrounding myself with people who were smarter and more skilled than I was paid incredible dividends. Life hack time: Surround yourself with people who are better and smarter than you. It pays off.
The classes with Todd and the range days were so beneficial because Todd is one of the best coaches I’ve ever encountered. He was a skilled instructor who put together a superb program…and I heard no less an authority than Ken Hackathorn praise the value and benefits of Todd’s classes in person, with my own two ears…but of even more value than that was his ability to watch what you were doing and give very specific feedback that made a huge difference in performance.
It is an unfortunate truth that there is a lot of shade and shenanigans in the firearms industry…but Todd always acted with honesty and integrity. Todd was honest and up front with me when a number of others weren’t, and I’m convinced that the reason why he was on such good terms with so many people in the community is precisely because of his character.
I think the best way to show you what kind of man he was is to direct you to this post he made about what we affectionately called his bionic elbow. Todd took a lot of pride in being skilled with a handgun and because of cancer he had to re-learn everything. To go to zero from a place where your peers recognized you for your skill can be tough…but if he struggled with that he never really let on.
After a visit with him shortly after the elbow replacement I told some of the other guys that I thought he looked a tad frail, but seemed to be in good spirits and excited about getting back to it. He emailed me that day:
“Elbow or not, I can still out-shoot you any day of the week!”
To which I replied “Of course. Because I just donated all my practice ammo money to your cancer charity. So when I suck I’m going to blame it entirely on you.”
“How is that any different than your normal excuse?” he asked
“It’s not. That’s the beauty of it!”
Todd was constantly doing things for people behind the scenes. I couldn’t possibly list all the acts of kindness and favors he did for people, all the encouragement and help he gave to others because it’s too massive. I’m as good an example as any…I wouldn’t be writing if it wasn’t for Todd. When Caleb announced a writers contest a couple of years ago Todd told me that I should throw my hat in the ring. I thought he was nuts, but as was often the case he turned out to be right. He was always gently nudging people in the right direction, making connections behind the scenes, and providing input and assistance for others.
On March 15 at around 2 AM, Todd passed away. I was fortunate because I had a chance to spend some time with him in the week before, and I had the chance to say a proper goodbye.
His wife Kimberly was by his side through all of it and was so incredibly gracious…I wish I could really convey to you how wonderful she has been to those of us who cared about him. It took a lot of logistical wrangling and effort to make those final visits happen and those of us fortunate enough to be able to visit with him cannot possibly thank her enough for all she did to accommodate us and to care for our friend. Often when guys hang out together they tend to gripe about the other half. Todd never did. He always insisted that poor Kim got the worse end of the deal in their marriage.
I’m profoundly sad that I’ll never get to share the range with Todd again. That I’ll never get to go to dinner and spend 3 hours talking about training and obsessive firearms details with him again. That I’ll never get another sarcastic email from him again. That I’ll never get to listen to him try and psych me out before running me through the FAST again. That I’ll never completely freak out the waitstaff at a restaurant as we pass around knives and talk about classes and real life experiences with him again.
My skill as a shooter is better because of his instruction and coaching…but my life is better for having had him as a friend. Todd was a friend for life. I just wish so very much that his life could have been longer.
I love you, brother. And I can’t tell you how much I miss you.
If you would like to donate to Todd’s cancer charity, Rampage for the Cure (Archer reference, of course!) click here.